Sad thoughts

Ever since my Mom die three years ago my life has not been the same i a sense that my mother and i were very close i can talk about anything with her and she was always someone i look up to but when she lost the battle with cancer and i never got the chance to talk to her one last time was and still real hard for me to understand and still to this day i question god about it people always say she is in a better place and i say thats bullshit she should be here watching her two grandson growing up and spend time with them but i guess is life u live and die sooner or later no one can escape thar but in the end u never moved on always stay in ur heart