Is been a long time since I write about my
life and all the daily struggles I have tried to keep it together and stay
positive but sometimes is really hard we all the weight resting on my shoulder
and looking for ways to make it better I am not saying that I am a quitter
other wise I would have done long time ago I love my kids I do anything for
them and not saying they are the reason of me feeling frustrate but the little
thing that happened in daily is what get me to the point that I am ready to
walk out and never to be hear from me ever again.... and sometimes I feel if I
do that I be making the biggest mistake of my life by leaving my kids to a life
of struggles and pain and I don’t want that to happened but in the back of my mind
feel like I don’t give shit no more and disappear forever and deal with the
consequents later on but I stood my ground and keep dealing with the everyday
problems and look on the bright side that one day thing will be better and days
like this I miss my mother so much I wish she is here with me giving me advise
and me talking to her like we use before she past away but I know she always be
watching me and her grandkids
For all the right or wrong reason I have to
keep moving forward and never give up no just for me but for my kids they are
little to understand what life struggles is about and I don’t want them to deal
with that by me no being there when they need me the most
Hopefully today and the rest of the weekend
I figure out what I want to do before is to late and I can calm my mind down my
head feel like is going to explode .....
