More of me

I love my life and everyone in it however some times I feel like I want to disappear out this world and start in a place new with none one to know me and start over with no mistakes that I have made over the years don’t get me wrong I love my kids they are the best thing that happened to me I a very long time but some times I feel like I am trapped in box and I cant get out and no matter what I do to get free I keep falling more and more I want to be a truck driver so I can at least be free even if it is for a moment and be able to see the country from one end to the other like I say don’t get me wrong as soon as I leave I am going to missed them like crazy but I have to do it other wise when all this is over I be saying to myself what happened all the goal the I have never realize because I was holding back and I don’t want to use that as excuse I want to be able to say I did it and there is not regret every one else is doing it why not me and also that is my family future of at least a better life and I am wasting to much time and every minute that pass by is an eternity and cant not be wasted with excuses life is such short some times that when we realize is all over and I don’t want to be one of those that never get to realize his dream no not me hopefully before the year end I be able to complete my training and get my cdl class a and be on the road at the start of next year and achieve my  goals and dream and provide to my family a better life with no more worries

Personal finances

Last night I was thinking that I need to get my financial problems taking care cause I cant leave my life like that with no money at the end of every week and scratching my head to figure out how I might going to go to work because I have little money for gas and I came to a conclusion that I been working in this country since I came from my country and I have none saved all I have is debt and that’s not good cause what will happened when I retired with what money I am counting on the social security money I don’t even know if that money will be there when I retire the way this country is going I don’t think I be having social security so last night I was really piss off and I say to myself enough is enough so when I wake up this morning I have an Idea of what I am going to do in order to get my financial back and I came up with a budget of what is going to be following from now on

1: since I leave far away from work is almost 40 minutes back in fort and the gas prices is not getting lower I am going to open a new bank account that I am going to be used for gas only and think I never fill the tank the hole way up adding $ 10 dollars for five days is going to saved me at least something

2: I have to stop eating lunch outside from now on I am going to start bring in my lunch from home and I am saving at least 5 to 6 dollars every time I eat lunch

3: since I have kids and every time I go shopping with them I end that buying a toy or a movie I decide that I only buy them one item one time every month and hopefully that saved me money to and also since I have the bj’s card I starting to buy the pampers and wipes from there so I don’t have to buy it twice in the same month

4: also I need to start stop spending money on impulse some times I see something I like and I say to myself since I am working why not but no more from now on I only buy something when I really need it

5: also the most important thing I have to start adding money to my saving account and not using it and let it grow

Hopefully if I do this I be able to have money and not worry about what is happened to me now and stay on track so when I retired I have a little peace of mind knowing that I have something saved and be able to enjoy my self