Year Resolution

1: Get rehire again with Crst Expedited and start making money
2: Be more happy and smile more
3: Love my kids more than recent years tell them i love them all the time
4: Finish the contract with Crst and drive solo and lease a truck
5: Start my diet once again and reshape my entire body
6: Provide a better life for my kids
7: Enjoy my time on earth more than before
8: More to come but in order for that to happen i need to make this a reality

Thoughts

Monday i start orientation again for a rehire job with Crst Expedited i really don't want to go but i have no choice i am out of money and if i don't do something i be leaving on the street and i can allow that to happen so this time i have to just suck it up and be ready for the challenge and expect more out myself because i have my kids that depend on me and i am not about to disappointed in any way no matter what happen i want them to be proud

More of my thoughts

No matter how hard i tried not to think about why my life is been ups and down mostly downs is the only think on my mind i want to be positive but i cant figure out i worry to much i am always in a bad mood am not as loving parent with my kids anymore is like ever time they are around me i am pushing them away and i don't like that want to change but don't know how i want to be better for my kids and i find myself struggling at times something is missing and i need to figure out soon or ill be to late before i realize the damage