diet blog

I gained more weight this time around then when I was really over weight back in Alabama and that need to stop as soon as possible I been trying every weight loss pill out there and yea the work for like a month or two and them I go back to my old way in part is my fault cause I have not really push my self to loss the weight like the time I did it and since that time I haven’t been able to take control of my body and I been frustrating with no way out to the problem and one way or another had to stop and I been making a lot of excuses and a lot of promises and I failed more than what I promises myself hopefully this time I stick to my promises and get back on track I been so frustrate with the way my body looks now and is like something inside me that holding me back I don’t want to use that as an excuses but that’s how I feel but no more starting this week I am going to start doing my walking after work five times a week and if for some reason I miss a day I have to do it double on the same day I want to at least loss some weight before the year end and feel at least better about me going in to next year with a good motivation to stay on track and get my priorities on top and stop worried about everyone else cause it seen that I worry to much and is not good for me it takes me away from my goals and I don’t want that I want to stay focus and really get back to the thing I like to do with out worried about any one else and I know I can do that if I stay on track I join a gym a couple month ago and that was my biggest mistake cause I only went a couple times I was embarrassed about the way I look and that’s not good my mother used to say that I should be happy with the way I am and if I want to get a little better than what I look I should work on it however I been tried and tried really hard but my biggest problem is that I don’t have a clue about dieting and I really don’t know how to know what is a good food from the bad and even know some food says on the label that is fat free or low on carbs or low fat sometimes is not what it seems but I need to do more research and really get on top of my die and get myself back on track of things I don’t want to write something here for everyone to see and not doing it this time is no more games this time is do or die and I don’t want to start the new year looking the way I am right now not anymore

I need to follow I couple of thing in order to stay in track this blog will be updated regularly so can every one see my progress a picture of what I am looking right now is coming soon hope everyone who read it leave me a comment and help me trough my journey thanks   

Be who you are no matter what others say

I create this blog so I can express myself in stuff that happened with my life and around but there one particular thing I like talk about and that is about being who you are and not let anyone or anything change the foundation that has always been the person in you and no matter what happened no one can make you believe different my point is I meet this girl long time ago probably 2 o 3 years ago our relation never went to the next level because we never give a chance to each other to make work but I still talking to her and now she is married and she give birth last week so I tell her to check out my blog and tell me what she think of what she saw the first thing that came out her words was you have three kids wow you never told me that that’s why our relation never went to the next level and all and I realize that no matter what I say is never good enough for her I say how you feeling never got any respond back so my real point to this is yes I have three kid two that our really mine and one that I consider mine also I raise that kid since she was 2 years old and there real father was never around father is not the one that create is the one that is there in good times and bad that what real fathers do and she is upset because she find out I write that I have three kids I found out that she was married after she did it and I was a little mad but not to the point to when she write me something not to respond back so I realize that I really enjoy the way I am when I was in Cuba in school I never let any one change who I am I was not popular but I never had any problem scoring girls and I did fall in love when I was in 8 grade I really love that girl but them again it was not my time to be together with her we never take the relation to the next level we end that never talking to each other again and even know we were at the same school we past in front out each other like there were no one there and I dint feel bad or anything like that I did end that with some one else and I was enjoin myself everything she see me with her so back to my point again never let any one change some times when you change who you are to please some one or tried to be different than what you really are never work out in fact is always for the worst don’t get me wrong people can change but when I am talking about change I don’t mean that if you were a bad person and want to be a good person you can do it I am not talking about that change I am talking about when people want to change your personality they tried to make you feel bad and you have to say stuff very carefully that you don’t want to offend any one my mother rip she had a personality like no other she was funny , happy person to be around but she had that one thing that people hated when something bother her she automatically let you know whether you like it or not she cannot stay with that inside and that’s one of the thing I really like about her she maybe saying what no one want to hear but she dint care cause that who she was and she was not changing her ways so I never was like her like that I do say what is on my mind but I may take me more time to say it than her but when I say it I don’t care how I say it or who I say it what is done is done I usually don’t regret at the end even know is not good but that’s how I am and I be like that till I died so for people out there that want to change there personality to impress or please some one you may tried but at the end everything goes back to the way it was before no matter how hard they want to tried take it for me I been there