Family experience

I love my family there is not denying that my mother rip she was the best mother anyone could have in every aspect she was caring, loving, she always tell us that no matter what situation we are in that we should tell her no matter what she always be there for us and I tried to be the same or even better for my kids but getting back to my family I do really miss my mother a lot she was always there for me giving me advice on everything even when I have my fist kid that was a moment where everything change for me cause when it was only me I dint care about many stuff cause I don’t need to worry about anyone but me but when you have your first kid it change your life completely it change how you think on every level cause is not about you anymore and she teach me that and I learn a lot from her and also I learn a lot from my father he also has been there for me even when he had a chance to came to this country when he was young and he rather stay with his family and he let the opportunity pass by and I really admire him for that however my mom die of cancer almost two years ago and my father went in to a state of sadness we all did however my mother always use to say that when she die she don’t want anyone to be sad in fact she want everyone to be happy dead is just another state in life that we all be going to go one way or another but when she die that was the most hard day in our life but I always listen to what my mother always tell me and I did and also I have a family now and I cant stay down cause they depend on me and I am not letting them down however was not the case for my father and brother at the time my father was not working cause he was taking care of my mom and my brother was not working either even know my mother was sick she was paying for everything in the house and that was not fair she even fight with my brother cause he was not working to tell you the true I think she had enough of them and she dint want to keep fighting anymore that what I think I could be wrong hope I am but then she die and then my brother get a job with my help like always they dint have a car to go to work and I lend then mine he got fired from his job cause he was starting to miss Mondays and they have enough of that to the place where they live the owner had enough of them paying the rent little by little and he decide not to rent the place anymore so me being the nice guy I take them in at my place and that was the biggest mistake I ever make cause they start to taking advantage of me being nice and because we are family my father knowing that I was the only one working and knowing that were I live I have to pay water he starting to wash dishes every day and even if is only one or two plates still washes I told him one time not do it regularly he dint take really well my brother dint want to get a job he only want to get the one that fired him cause he say that the supervisor want him back and I told him ok tried to get back to get it and days past weeks past even months and at the end was the same thing they dint want him there so I call an old friend and he went to apply at ups and when they call him and my father I was at work so I went to pick both up and my father came with a sorry ass excuse that he wasn’t feeling good and all of that so I take my brother there he was complaining also but he stay there I was two months of where I feel uncomfortable in my own place at the end I pay for there tickets so they can go to one of my brothers friend down in Arizona and I hope they not doing what they been doing at my house and I find out that my brother was using my phone and sending email to my father family in Cuba about how they were treated at my place and it was funny because they forgot to mention how they were doing and how they were kick out there place where they were renting but hey I did what I could I am glad they are far away so I don’t have to worry about them anymore and I can focus on my family more in time I will see them again so I can say what is on my mind this time around     

Diet Blog

Another day looking at my body and still not getting any result I think is to much stress or not concentrating enough to do it right can’t find my way can’t make good decision on healthy eating no matter what I do is not right I can’t seen to stay focus enough and is been more than a month without training and that not who I am I love training but somehow when I think about it that I am going to do I end that with a change of mind and when I start doing it I never finish is like something inside me don’t want me to succeed and I cant take it anymore is been a struggle from the moment I enter in this country and is mostly my fault for not staying on top of myself hopefully when all my problems are over and I don’t have to worry much I can put myself again as a priority and get back into shape and live a healthy life like I always been since I was little somehow I been writing the same thing for like 7 years and not changes since then and every time I say I am going to do something it never happened and I promise myself that before the year runs out I be at least a little lighter however is not happened so far but I think I know why is not happened cause I been hoping to much and I have not taking any action whatsoever is time for changes and this time it is for real I can live my life hoping thing will be better no more hoping and time for action from this day forward no more disappointments and no more hoping from this day forward I will change my life complete and start losing the weight and be more happier and more healthy before the new year arrived