From the first time my ex
girlfriend say the word pregnant my world chatter complete is not that I dint
want it back them is that like everyone else that hear that word is not ready
for it and I was not with some many thing to do and not that I was living my
life careless or living like rock start partied all weekend long no that was
not me I was living responsible working , staying out trouble , concentrating
in me and staying out the drama inside my family and friends but them I realize
that it was time to get even more serious about life cause It was not about me
anymore now I have a big responsibility and even know I was not ready I was
determine to face head on and with some support from my family a meant lest
face it was there first grandchild my mother was not to happy about it cause
she think that my ex got pregnant on purpose and so the drama unfold between
her and not that I don’t listen to what a good mother have to say but I was
surprise she think that way about some one but after a while she started to
accept the fact and she begin to be more understandable about the situation and
she started give my ex some support and help her in anyway she can and I
started to feel more relieve about the situation I never think she did that on
purpose even know the mind is a difficult place it makes you believe otherwise
I can lie about in my mind I was thinking different but not to the point of
think that she was doing that on purpose and then when the big day arrived and
I was there seeing how it developed I when I saw the baby coming out and I hold
it for the first time I say to myself why I was thinking I was not ready for it
how can you be not ready for something so beautiful that a lot of people that
can’t have babies die to experience the joy of having something that you help
create come to live and all the joy of being father for the first time brings
how can I say I was not ready till that moment me that since I was little I
always take on any challenge that approach in my life and always tried to do
the very best in me under any circumstance no matter what the outcome is I
always be proud at the end that I know I give my all to succeeded and when it
come to my first child I dint have a word I was scared but see in him for the
first time in my life I realize that there is no reason to be scare about
anything anymore he changes me complete and I know that as long as I have
breath in my body and soul I be there for him till the end I share with him
everything that my father share with me cause he is and always been there for
me I make sure that I am able to guide him trough out his life and making sure
he succeed in every aspect and on whatever decision he makes that I support him
and if I can give him advice on everything he needs he can count on me no
matter what the situation is as long as I alive my conditional support for him
is more than 100%
And then it happened my
second child was born and this time I was prepare for it emotionally happy but
with sadness cause my mother dint see him but I know that she watch him over
and she watch over both and all of us and since my second child born is been
more than life changing with my two boys I can see them play together , fight ,
being funny with one another hug each other which is cute celebrate two
birthdays every year which is not easy but I do my best every time I go
anywhere my older one always come with me and he always trick me to buy him a
toy but even when I say no I realize that when I was in Cuba my family tried
harder to make my childhood really pleasant and even with the way the country
was doing that it was hard to get anything they always find a way to give us
something that make us happy and now I tried to provide my kids with something
they enjoy in a country where you have money you can buy almost anything you
like so why not but I always teach them that when situation are tough and can
get there ways no reason to be upset or start crying cause I know thing will
get better and when thing are better I always buy them more than one toys and I
also teach my kids to share with the people that share with you and be
respectful of everyone else and most important thing be good in school and pay
attention to everything and yea people will say but there are to little and I
always say if you don’t teach them now since they are little when they grow up
you already miss the time to show them something and whatever happened after
don’t blame them blame yourself for not teach them when you have a chance
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comments always appreciate
Roberto Cosa
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